An apology

It's been hard for me to breathe these past few weeks.
I miss his smile. His laugh. His friendship. His strenth & comfort.
I fight the overwhelming urge to curl up in the fetal position under my covers.
Or sit sobbing on the shower floor.
I can't...
You see, I have been given -though I do not want it- the task of moving forward, forgetting... letting go.
With a piece of my heart gone & missing;
A void that cannot be filled...
I carry my memories.
And these memories they sharpen the jagged edges of that void.
They do nothing to soothe my pain.
So, I apologize to those who see me now...I haven't had the energy of expression...
I have been indulging my memories...

Yet soon, these memories will be put to rest...

for good. (revised)

Roses-Seether

You feed this disease
Which you shelter underneath the scars
And dream of better things
Rendered helpless by those wicked charms
But please don't believe
When I say it's hard to breathe

Save me
Even as you break me
Every time you rape me
Leave me coming all undone

Praise me
Turn your back and hate me
Every time you waste me
Keep me underneath your thumb

You bleed on the sheets
Whisper softly how you love the scars
Then plead on your knees
Pledge your promises to do no harm
But please just let me be
I still find it hard to breathe

Save me

Even as you break me
Every time you rape me
Leave me coming all undone

Praise me
Turn your back and hate me
Every time you waste me
Keep me underneath your thumb

Save me

Sent to me:

Remember, You are someone truly special and deserve only the very best in life. I pray your dreams are as beautiful as you...impossible as that may seem...

No dream could ever hope to match both the outer beauty and the inner beauty.

@ 2:20am

I am cared for :-)