Tomorrow Isn't Promised

I've thought (all of about two seconds) on how I want to approach this subject line.
I have nothing.
I'm the type of person that allows creative flow to come from spontaneous thought rather than cold calculated thought and structure.
Tomorrow...
It's a misconception. Yes, we plan, prepare and present ourselves as though everything we are doing today will make a difference tomorrow. While that is an excellent resourceful way of living life (not to mention the RIGHT thing to DO), we by-pass so many things that hinder the way we approach our present state of mind/being/vitality.
I'm tired of hearing "it's complicated" or "I'm bored". I don't want to hear "if only" or "what if".
SAY IT STRAIGHT forward. There is no time like the present to live IN THE MOMENT.
I'm not trying to say that my past isn't going to come back to haunt me, or that my feelings aren't going to be hurt for something that is said to me today...
I'm simply trying to say that I'm tired of living my life AROUND the what if's and the regret.
I don't want there to ever be a second of my time where I reduce myself to thinking that my only choice was anything but a definitive alternative to what might have been. I want to KNOW beyond a shadow of a doubt that I CREATED my OWN destiny.
I'm not "that" person. I may not be free to fully express myself, but I'm chained to the endless possibility of doing so! It sounds much better in my head, and I'm sure you're trying to understand what it is I'm REALLY hoping to say, but THAT's the point! STOP trying to understand me and DO IT! It's simple.
If you can't SAY IT, then maybe you shouldn't be talking to me at all.
That's not harsh, that's reality.
I'm anything but ordinary and I refuse to allow myself to be restricted to the idea of anything else except who I am and what I want.
I've lived in terror. I've lived with impending doom, and my conclusion is that I am now trying to make the best of WHATEVER situation is handed to me by living "in the moment".
I am the only person who truly knows how to make ME happy, and that's what I intend to do.
Tomorrow...is ALREADY today! Don't confuse it with the future.

~Jenn